Felt like years ~

“Good,” Junpei said. “That’s important. Your work should be an act of love, not a marriage of convenience.”

Been through so much between March-May, but thankfully I’m still alive. Hmm…

I took the Broker’s Exam last March 17, went to Boracay a few days after to “unwind”, found out that I passed the Exam, felt amazing, came back to Manila and felt sick afterwards. Ever since the first week of April, I’ve been sick –but well, I can honestly say I’m better now. But nothing like before I guess.

I want to go out and relax and all, but I can’t seem to keep myself together — the thought of going too far from home scares me (crazy). I freak out inside, what if I faint during the travel? What if I become ill all of a sudden? I just can’t.

I’ve been thinking too much about my health, I can’t even function at work that well. I’d rather stay at home and feel safe than go out there and try to earn money.

But paranoia (and somatization) aside, I’ve been reading a lot of Haruki stories lately. I may get dizzy and nauseated a lot of times perhaps due to my blurry eyes, but meh… 🙂

So I’ve probably wasted the entire April-May of 2013, and I might just waste the rest of the year if I don’t try to fix my current state of health and mind…

I’m a mess… as messy as the Norwegian Wood movie. xD


About Yuko

I wanna get on long, long bus ride. I really do.
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